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Okay, so call me a traitor.
Go ahead, do it.
Because I admit it, I've been cheating on my LJ for Xanga.
I didn't believe I was capable, but I am, and I'm sorry. If you're interested:
http://www.xanga.com/home.aspx?user=CanDizzle_Shizzle
There you'll find a more interesting and thorough update of my life! Enjoy.
Love you all. (I think)
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| YEAH UCLA!!! |
[27 Apr 2005|08:38pm] |
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Sick! But happy. |
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Okay, so we got 3rd place in the Harvard Kendo tournament, but we still kicked Ivy League ASS. Hahahaha.
UCSD got first (strong team!) and Salem College or something won second. But they half cheated...three of their players were from Japan.
Anyway, bestest trip EVER!!!
And had the best birthday of my entire life.
Have a digital camera, so pictures will come later!! Peace outttttttt
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| Tim O'Brien = genius |
[07 Apr 2005|08:08pm] |
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Over the past empty months, as your ex-husband combs the far-off beaches of Fiji, have you not felt exactly what I feel? A contradictory mix of despair and hope, longing and regret, ferocious hatred and barbaric love? Be truthful. Did you not conceive, if only briefly, your own plan of revenge? Did you not imagine hurting him just as he hurt you? Did you not picture him on his knees, begging forgiveness, and did you not covet that moment when you would shrug and turn your back and walk into the arms of a handsome young lover of your own?
Too harsh, you might say, but as O'Brien also says, "Tough fucking noogies."
Hope the days find you in better spirits than I.
But I'm okay, really. I am.
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| Just When I Thought It Couldn't Get Any Worse |
[04 Apr 2005|01:13am] |
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I needed to get it out, and yes dammit, I needed an audience....so here's an excerpt from the life and mind....
As I stood and gazed out at the ocean on the beach, the cool, salty breeze caressing my skin and hair, I had a flood of memories. Memories of days long past, or so it felt, and ones that seemed could never be relived; perhaps no longer remembered. That one night we sat on the beach together, the dark sky ahead with only the sound of the waves and faint illumination of street lights reaching our senses, things were so different. Better, in hindsight.
He loved me then, a kind of love only possible when unrequited romance is given a chance. It was a love mysterious and strong enough to send the butterflies aflutter, to create a rose-colored image of the world. Everything seemed good, and we were happy.
Or so I thought.
The cold sand beneath us, the black water ahead, and the night sky all around became our sanctuary, blessed and made sacred by our own bonds. The mood was serene yet jubilant, suspenseful yet romantic. Both waited for the other to initiate an indication of love, of affection, something more than friendship. And although it did not happen that night, in some ways it had, and each knew what might come in the near future.
How all of that changed, and how suddenly. That unsuspecting girl on the beach that night could have never guessed the heartache, the pain, the emotional hardship that was to come of the relationship. He seemed flawless, a doomed image from the start, but ideal nonetheless.
I tumbled head over heels times five, a love so intense a heart as inexperienced as mine could not handle. Love heals, but more often than not, it hurts.
You read that? IT HURTS.
And there isn't much we can do about it most of the time, but it doesn't change the fact that we've been wronged.
For a first-timer at the heartbroken game, I think I'm faring pretty well, don't you?
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| Snow and Tahoe, here I come! |
[24 Mar 2005|03:51pm] |
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Okay, so finals are all over, they have been for a little while (at least for me), and...I've basically done nothing but shop the past couple of days.
Ski trip tomorrow until Monday, and I'm looking forward to it! Never snowboarded before, so it should be fun (and painful).
I sold my books back, five of them only got me $20. Pretty pathetic, but I suppose it's better than nothing.
It feels SO good to relax, and I've got a room full of caffeine. It should make for an interesting day.
Except I'm here with no food or money, and...I can't get a hold of the people I need to! Frustrating, yes, but I won't let it ruin my mood.
I'll probably just sleep all day anyway.
I'm allergic to the cat I love so much, which is a total bummer. I went home last night and experienced terrible allergies - even my lips swelled up! It was quite the sight, if I do say so myself.
Mmmm, music.
All the cool people are going home! And I'm stuck here, because, well, I practically am home.
Haha.
Okay, I'm done. I hope all of you have had, or are having, a wonderful spring break - take care!
Peace outtttt
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| Man... |
[21 Mar 2005|01:22pm] |
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Blech-ed out. |
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Non. (Yay for francais) |
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Fuck finals.
The past couple days have been spent like I'm done. And the worst part is, I FEEL like I'm done.
You know when that happens, it's over.
I went shopping, bought a bomb-ass pair of shades(actually, my mom was awesome and bought them for me), spent a shitload of money @ AF, had some yummy Kernels popcorn...and that was just yesterday. Oh yeah, and paid $40 for a spa manicure and pedicure.
Mmmmhmmm.
It's funny, my mom was so...not helping me get back to studying. She was just like, "oh, let's go see a movie," and, "are you sure you have to get back so soon?" I was like, oh man...don't wanna study, but I seriously haven't done ANYTHING! I love my mom.
My last final's tomorrow. It's multiple choice philosophy. I don't know how much more I can take - how hard could this exam be?? Last quarter's was pretty easy, and the class as a whole was a lot harder.
BURNT OUT, is the phrase. No two words could describe me better right now.
Anyhow, TELLY'S coming tonight! To sleepover! With me, Jane, and Em. And I'm really excited. It's gonna be a party.
And nevermind about the final. haha.
Alright, I have to study now. Or at least, try.
Peace.
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| Music! |
[13 Mar 2005|01:53am] |
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OUCH! |
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Shalalala |
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I feel like an old woman.
Back pains, a sore neck...and my ass hurts too.
And guys, not from THAT....
I totally had my ass beat down at Kendo practice Friday night. This guy I practiced with was just too big and he charged at me, to my surprise. He hit the point and just kept on going. It came so fast I couldn't avoid it! I flew backwards and totally landed, all 115 pounds plus momentum of me, on my ass. It hurt so bad I couldn't even move for a couple of minutes. How silly!
I'll have to learn to either counter or just plain avoid instances like that. And I'd been good about it, up until then.
At least he apologized, but still. What a jerk.
Anyway, had work today, made an easy 40 in tips...and discovered Noah's. Awesome bagel's place! So good.
Shakuhachi = the coolest thing ever. And drunk musicians = good times.
Good luck with studying and finals, everyone!
Peace.
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Haha, actually, that "why they hate you" part is Craig. Not me.
So class finished early today, and I'm so excited. But I have to work today.
And..actually, that's a good thing. So the excited part still stands.
I haven't worked for THREE WEEKS, and it'll be really good to see people again. I like UZ people; they're an all around great gang. But I guess they have to be, or they wouldn't be there. Hah.
Things are going well too, except finals are rapidly approaching, and I'm not ready yet! Study time, here I come. Because I've been so chill the past few weeks!
Also had intense taiko practice last night. It was fun, because soloing is fun, but when I get tired, my playing gets really sucky. Something to work on, for sure....
Anyway, that's all, going home this weekend...no other news!
Peace.
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| Tired |
[26 Feb 2005|04:32pm] |
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CN Afterparty was last night, at Rusty's in SaMo. It was pretty fun, dancing, drinking(though not for me), and having a good time with friends. Went to Denny's afterwards; you'd be surprised how crowded Denny's is at 3 in the morning.
Got back at 4:30, had a short taiko gig around 12 in Torrance.
I'm so tired.
I have a ton of work to do, but I just can't do it! So instead, I'm listening to Hindi songs.
Ah, those good times.
Saw Matt and Bardo a few days ago, which was nice. Then saw Thomas for the first time all quarter. And...had pizookies on Thursday night.
Nothing interesting for you guys, really, except that I'm going through a bit of an emotional struggle at the moment. Let's keep it at that.
Peace.
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| YAY! |
[22 Feb 2005|12:41am] |
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Exhuasted, to the bone. |
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Cultural Night is officially OVER.
No more ridiculously long rehearsals all weekend, no more CN-related stress, no more worrying and tension and all that other negative stuff.
Granted, the performance went pretty well. Everybody put on a really good show, and the family really enjoyed it.
Still, I couldn't be happier that it is over.
It was also nice to go out with my family for once tonight, even if it was for a short while.
I feel tired, a bit relieved, and...well, REALLY tired.
And...I want to take a shower.
Class early morning = no fun. But I guess one more night of very little sleep won't make much difference!
A huge, grateful thanks to those who showed up - I couldn't be happier that you guys were able to make it!
Peace out, I'm done.
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| Tanabata |
[16 Feb 2005|08:57pm] |
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NSU'S Culture Night Countdown: 5 more days!
We have all day practices this weekend (i.e. 9 am - 10 pm) and I'm definitely not looking forward to those. Frankly, I can't wait until CN is over! After that it'll be stress free, for the most part. I suppose performing will be fun, but after that, I'll just be doing backstage stuff. It should be fine, I hope!
Family and friends are coming to watch...how exciting! If you're in town, or still here, or whatever, and would like to attend, give me a call!! I'll be thrilled that you're coming.
It's the only thing I have to look forward to - seeing people!
CN Afterparty on the 25th, also should be good.
Just took my midterm yesterday, and it was my only one, so I'm chilling the rest of this week until the weekend. My classes are pretty laid-back this quarter, which is a plus, considering the overall hectic nature of winter quarter. And, I only have TWO finals! YAY!
Spring Break = far away, but something I'm really looking forward to.
April should be interesting...I'm going to be in the Harvard Intercollegiate Kendo tournament! It's held in Boston, at Harvard (duh) the weekend of my birthday. In fact, we'll be missing three days of classes for the silly trip. We leave the 21st (my birthday plus one day) and come back the 25th. Wow. But it should be a really great experience, yes? I sure hope so.
Sorry it's a boring entry, but that's all I've got...peace!
PS If you get a chance, D/L Russell Peters! He's a HILARIOUS Indian comedian who does these mind-blowing ethnic impressions. It's like, the thing here on campus.
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| Drama, in more than one sense of the word |
[11 Feb 2005|11:28pm] |
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Okay, so not really for me personally, but I've just witnessed some, is all.
Culture Night looms ever closer, and all day practices start tomorrow! Eek.
Also, I need money!
Went V-Day shopping, and it was my mom's birthday...got to spend some time with her and the family, with the exception of my dad. I don't know where he was tonight. Kendo, probably.
Watched Head, a "counterculture movie" by the Monkees. It was so random, and so interesting. My uncle's totally into that stuff, and he was thrilled to hear about my cluster course. It's funny.
Disappointed, to hear that my appointment had to be postponed until the week after this coming week, meaning I won't get my braces off until the 23rd. Boo!!
But. I probably will get to live by myself next year! Yay for single rooms!
I've had to take off work for the next few weekends for a mixture of Culture Night and taiko gigs; things are going to be busy for the next week or two. Paper Monday, midterm Tuesday, and I thought I'd be free, pretty much.
Workwise, maybe. But not extracurricular-wise.
Can't find Craig right now! I hope he's showering or something and NOT asleep.
Hope Valentine's Day finds you in good spirits. Peace out.
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| Muse Rocks |
[01 Feb 2005|09:59pm] |
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I FUCKING love this song. |
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Muse - Unintended |
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So yes, it's true! Cashier training, on Thursday. Thanks, Madeleine!
And BOOYAH, my braces are COMING OFF on the 16th. That's fucking awesome, and I can't wait.
I have a midterm the day before, though, so...eh.
NSU's Cultural Night is coming up, on the 21st, and things are getting really hectic just to prepare for it. Taiko and all that good stuff.
And I joined UCLA's Kendo Club a few weeks ago. It's cool, and the people (mostly guys) are nice.
Kendo tournament was on Sunday, and I did...better than I have in the past. Except this guy in my division was a total dick. Trying to push me around and such. What a fucker. I lost to him, unfortunately, but not without a hard fight! I think it helps, being in shape. ::flexes::
So many things to do, mostly papers and studying for midterms and such, and I may fall behind if I'm not careful. It was semi-frustrating because I found out the first draft of my philosophy paper is totally off target. Thank goodness for office hours!!
Falling in love with Muse some more, of course. My sister has actually surpassed me as Muse fanatic, though. She's even crazier than I.
Going back to studying now, peace out!
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[13 Dec 2004|12:01am] |
Midnight yell is going on right now.
I came across Yumi's LJ tonight, username ironiclucidity.
It completely mesmorized me, that someone can be so capable of expressing emotion in such a way. Her drawings, her posts...made me ashamed of my superficial and silly ones!
Her drawings in particular, are absolutely captivating. Morbid, yes, but incredibly amazing.
She's an artist-type(obviously), and although I don't know her very well at all, I'm recommending her LJ for a rainy day, or anyday, when you have some free time and want to read some artsy, emotional things. Wow.
And yes, that's right, I'm not studying for finals right now.
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[12 Dec 2004|04:51pm] |
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I was diligently studying for my finals, when out of nowhere, amidst the carcinogen concept for my air pollution class, I remembered....
City Champs was yesterday!!
Congratulations to North Hollywood's Royal Regiment on the City Championship title. I'm sorry I couldn't be there, but I don't doubt it was an awesome show.
Okay, now back to studying.
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 You're known for starting trouble. But you play it cool. Besides, no one can resist your sharp eyes and quick wit. *They* eat from the palm of your hand. Though you have weaknesses, which may have deadly consequences, you, are resurrected, as if the gods themselves breathed immortality into you. Take the What Pulp Fiction Character Are You? quiz. |
Thanks Ray, for this idea.
Except that's totally not me. I wish I were as cool as Mia! With the exception of the slick heroin sniffing.
Did some massive Christmas shopping today.
But before that...did some fun volunteer work in Chinatown, doing toy distribution! Yes, that's right. Just before finals week, I've given up my time to do the community a service.
And now, to study.
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| I Miss Piano. |
[09 Dec 2004|08:18pm] |
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YAY! and then not.... |
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So the quarter is almost over, and it feels so good.
Even better, I've finished all of my papers. It's a weight off of my shoulders, but not as big a load off as I would've hoped.
Because I've still got a shitload of reading to do.
I have finished my huge-o course reader though, and that's freaking awesome.
I've been so eager to get my papers over with that I've almost been excited to start studying for finals.
Emily and Drew went to a MUSE concert last night!! I was jealous, but not so much anymore, because she brought me back...and brace yourself...a Muse T-shirt and sticker!!!! That just made my extremely stressful day.
Worked really hard last night and all of today, and then knocked out in lecture this afternoon.
And...I don't really have much else to write about! How depressing. Christmas shopping this weekend is a must, since I'm partly moving out on Friday night.
How awkward, writing such random and trivial things here. I hope you all are having a good time, and best of luck with finals!
Much love and peace.
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| Blah |
[06 Dec 2004|12:36am] |
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I really don't feel like updating, but I don't want to have to do anything else, so here's a quick and perhaps incoherent rundown of my day.
Brunch with Craig this morning.
Taiko practice from 12-3, did Secret Santa gift exchange. Jason liked my gift, and I was glad; Drew gave me a Gap giftcard. Yay for Gap. Learned rest of Encore and then Tatsu, and performed it at the end for older members. It was really fun, but last practice of the quarter = sad.
Still, end of quarter = amazingly good.
Made $40 this weekend from work, which is also good. Ultrazone Christmas party = unlikely, because it's finals week.
Oh, and Saturday night after work, I went to New Staff Social, which means...we drank and ate and drank some more. Played Kings, and drank too much. Got a little nauseated, took a break and fell asleep!!! Incredibly tired this morning.
Came back after practice, had dinner, and did nothing until like 10 pm, when I actually buckled down and finished the second draft of my philosophy paper. I'm really making this harder on myself by imposing earlier due dates, because I want to be able to go to office hours and have TAs look over my drafts.
But in the end, I hope it'll all be worth it. As in, I'll have done enough that I can not stress come deadline day.
And...since we have no dead week, classes continue as normal this week.
I am freaking tired and exhausted and out of it and...goodnight.
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| Crunch Time! |
[02 Dec 2004|09:16am] |
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My friend canceled on me for breakfast this morning, so I'm up with another half hour before class starts. So here's to boredom and Minoru's new game.
Type in "[your name] is" in quotes on google and see what comes up:
Candice is named queen of the reunion.
Candice is a passionate collector of Regency-period antiques.
Candice is one-third of Loonacy Records, which also consists of DJ T.
Candice is listed in fair condition.
Candice is sitting at the computer of her new dorm room. ::almost true::
Candice is a away, Jimmy might play. ::"a away?"::
Candice is a role model who can be showcased to the world. ::YAY!::
Candice is sitting up in bed.
And now, for my favorite:
Candice is a child of the times, flashy and lively.
That was fun, but I think now, I must be off to class.
Peace out!
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| Beat 'SC! |
[01 Dec 2004|06:25pm] |
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What's that? |
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That's been the mantra of this week, since we're playing them on Saturday. The campus is plagued with buttons, tattoos, the works. I won't be at the game, because of work, but I suppose it won't really matter...tickets were sold out months ago, and 'SC is undefeated thus far, which probably means we'll get our asses whooped.
Still, go LA!
Things have been going pretty well, except that it's ridiculously cold here (sorry, East Coast people, but I'm not accustomed to extreme weather like you) and I've been sick for a few days. This 24 hr Sudafed works wonders, though.
Taiko is pretty fun, as always, except that this new song, Encore, is kind of tough. Not in it's difficulty factor, but more along the lines of some-dissatisfied-older-taiko-members tough. Long story that I'm not really a part of. So we'll not talk about that.
Going to a movie tonight for my cluster class: "Hearts and Minds." Documentary on the Vietnam War, and after these past few weeks, I can honestly tell you I am ALL Vietnam-ed out.
Two papers due next week, and crunch time is rapidly approaching. That, plus getting involved in NSU (YAY New Staff) is a lot of fun, but could be time consuming. Oh, yeah. And don't forget finals.
Ooh, and I got my first package a few days ago: my new printer/scanner/copier from Best Buy. Pretty sweet, except that the other packages containing paper and USB-cable haven't arrived yet, which means...right now it's virtually useless to me.
First day of December means I have to hurry my ass up on Christmas shopping, because...otherwise nobody will get presents. If you don't get one from me and you feel like you should have, my excuse is...my family is in mourning for one year, and we can't celebrate Christmas.
Okay, so that's horrible, using my grandfather's death as an excuse not to give presents. But seriously, isn't that sad? On Christmas, in Japan, if a family member has died within the past year, they aren't supposed to celebrate, at all. That means, no presents, no tree, no cards sent out to all friends and family.
Anyhow, I'm off to that movie. Hope all of you are staying warm!
Peace.
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